Time doesn’t stop. No matter what is going on in our lives, no matter what we are doing, or planning to do, we all tie ourselves to the clock that never stops ticking. Even if we tried to do nothing so that the clock seemingly ticks a little slower, we can’t ever defeat the fact that time doesn’t slow down for you.

I’ve learned to pay less attention to time. Some days I don’t even know whether its Tuesday or Friday, the  4th or 12th. I stopped keeping track of it when I had babies. 2 years and 2 babies later I can’t believe how incredible fast my life flew by. But I have 2 kids and a husband to show for my last two years of existence.

It’s a crazy life some days, but its a life I would never trade for anything in the world. I am at my happiest point in life. My babies can drive me crazy, but the love I have for them surpasses anything they can possibly throw at me.

Beau is 4.5 months and he still wakes up at least twice in the night to feed. Most likely it’s comfort feeding and I am comfortable with feeding into it. He’s my baby-baby. He’s my little man. He’s my baby bear. He is at his happiest in the morning and just babbles away. He took a turn for the better about a month ago. He loves just being a part of the happenings now. He seems to have a mellow vibe, but not as mellow as Naomi was. He is tougher to make laugh, but when I get him to giggle it’s such a triumphant feeling! He has this high-pitched squeal of a laughter that makes you think of a piglet. It’s cute, honestly. And he’s all about eating his hands and drooling all over the place. I haven’t felt his  gums, but I suspect he may be teething. He’s 15 lbs but looks like he’s bigger. He could definitely pass for 6 months. He’s still got a great head of reddish hair. My ginger’s got hands like a strong baby. He is strong and he’s got great grip and is now able to hold on to things and stick it in his mouth.

Naomi is a few days shy of 18 months and she’s 22 lbs and about to get her shots in a couple days. She’s so “advanced” is what people tell me. They way she moves, her vocabulary, hand coordination. She’s still my baby too. She definitely went through  a phase of “noo”. Thank god that only lasted a hot couple of weeks. She’s so proud of herself for knowing words and animals and the sounds they make. She is now recognizing certain shapes like , star and heart and letters like A, B, C. Her vocabulary includes over 50 words like:

mama, dada, uncle, auntie, guh-guh, jeh-jeh, beau, baby, gong, ma, up, apple, fox, shark, fish, elephant, zebra, cat, dog, down, go, out, outside, please, no, help, hand, hold, car, hair clip, hair, head, eyes, nose, toes, ears, mouth, tongue, bird, parrot, see, hug, paint, dance, book, more, milk, poo poo, pee pee, shoes, pant, socks, shirt, diaper, sit, play, ice cream, cookie, cracker, chip, pizza, chick, bull, cow, frog, goat, duck, ball, pink.

She loves Beau still and maybe is slightly better at being more gentle with him. Very slight. She likes playing with him while he’s in the bouncer. Each time that he bounces, she seems to think she’s controlling it and gets  a kick out of it. She’s an adorable ticking time bomb. You never know when she’ll go off. Some days she’s more independent than other days. She’ll play with her toys by herself, other times she demands you to sit and play with her. Some days she’ll walk forever by herself and other days she’ll want to be picked up and carried everywhere. The terrible 2’s are definitely in full force now. But she’s still a lot to love for such a little thing.

We were able to escape to CineMax to watch Mad Max while Esther baby sat them during their nap time. I had so much fun I felt giddy! ….and a little guilty that I could and was having so much fun without my kids. Love them to pieces but DAMN it was great to get out without them today. We weren’t rushing to chew and swallow our food. We didn’t have to keep our guard up and keep a tight watch on them while eating. I had no responsibility for a couple of hours and it felt wonderful.  But I missed them so damn much too.

And as the same as last year, Chris and I exchanged cards we picked out at Trader Joes. It’s my favorite part and what I look forward to most. We decided we won’t do gifts since we already have everything we could possibly want. I also watched a video of our wedding day and got so nostalgic and felt so complete and so happy.

Because I am happy. I am genuinely so happy. Life is good! Our 2 years have been testy at times but mostly it was filled with a lot of love, fun, laughter, and joy. It really has.